Motivation - and I need it.

Three pieces of motivation received today:

1. Great news from Daz of Arran, a HL blogger given the all clear today after his PET scan. Can't wait to be in the same position.
2. Dates for my CT and PET scan confirmed for week beginning 14th May and by then I will have the last of my chemos behind me.
3. Mrs T has written a great quote on the comments section from my last post following an unfortunate comment made to us that did not go down too well. I really wish some people would think before the mouth goes into action - this is very real! I am in this position and have to make the best of a bad time, I did not ask to be here and I don't think I deserve to be either. (Quoted below)

Still feel poo after Chemo 4 with bad sickly feeling and the aches. Every time I think of the hospital and injections I fell sick which is not good. Looking forward to the kids returning from Wales tonight although I have to say the peace and quiet has been very nice.

Quote" Common sense tells us when catastrophe befalls us it's more productive to have a good attitude, to have gratitude, faith, hope, and lend a helping hand to those less fortunate. That's the ideal goal. Sometimes despite our best efforts, we fall short of this: we complain, feel sorry for ourselves, feel alone, that we've been dealt a hand we don't deserve. We may harbor resentments for those who've disappointed us, misunderstood us, avoided us, or even deserted us. This may lead us to isolate and fall into further despair.The challenge is to reclaim who we are. We can start by letting ourselves off the hook and giving ourselves the compassion we so desperately need. We can give ourselves permission to take as much time as we need to regain our health and our strength, permission to weep out loud at the loss of our hair, permission to curse God for how sick we feel. We can take back our power and dignity by talking out loud and without shame or apology about our illness or why we need help. Its not our fault we got cancer and there nothing that says we are bad or defective if we don't conduct ourselves like Mother Teresa. (Even saints have their defects.) But we can't do this alone."

Speak again soon